way back into love

dear readers, I know you've heard this song. me, too.
but it's different now cs it'll be my fav songs, yeey :D
he gave me a video with this songs when I'm in ma bday <3 the lyric, I lurrrrve it a much.

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past
I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
"And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end"

P.S; Happy 17th 26 February, dear Sintha <3 I love you more and ever!
P.S.S: I write this when I'm frustrated with my history lessons :|

runaway, let's say hello november!

long time after my last posting, eh?

so I'm here now, with so many problems round my head. fuch! it's about control myself, when I can't helped to say everyhting, EVERYthing in front of my friends, even if they're not my close friends. and they tell all my problems with everyone they meet. GADDD I wanna scream!! I must learn how to keep my mouth closed. one says, the best things to do is runaway, far far away for a moment.. how could I do that? yeah here I am, with my own "runaway" kinds. and when my problems are solved one by one.. let's say, hello november! LOUDLYY<3 my hopes are...

1. Get a better 7 number o:)
2. Get my Jakarta's ticket soon!!
3. There's no problem again like Octoberohell.. So done with October!
4. I could gain my money, so I wouldn't ask my dad or mum for something I could buy by myself.
5. Rain will comes every sunday morning, and it makes me feel much happier :)
6. Get so much quality sleep ;)
7. Could have many times to hang out, Girls Just Wanna Have Fun!!<3<3
8. I will focusly study hard... (can I?)
9. Happiness will come to me, everyday.. 
10. The internet's connection in my house will get better soon! it's soo lambrettoooo
11. Get my lost adobe after effect and illustrator.......

gee, I almost forget my runaways kind! you would know? here these all:

 Cry

Cry makes me better, although it can't help me solved my problems.. And this october, I have uncounted tears run down my face.

 Have Fun

I love to having fun, I need it more than before now. I miss my hang out time with bestfriends, not faking smile on my face.

Runaway Somewhere, Just With My Dolls

No one knows, and I could go anywhere until nights, until I'm tired, sleep, to forget all my problems.

 Scream

Have you ever heard, that scream could lose you stress, even a moment? Yes, I heard and believe it. 

my guardian angel

"When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can’t replace
And now that I’m strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I’ll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I’ll stand up with you forever
I’ll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It’s okay. It’s okay. It’s okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I’ll be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I’ll stand up with you forever
I’ll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cause you’re my, you’re my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don’t throw that away
Cause I’m here for you
Please don’t walk away and
Please tell me you’ll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I’ll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I’ll stand up with you forever
I’ll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven"

this song's supposed to my guardian angel, with initial Y. there's no one could make me feel like this before. he makes me smile, calm, and feel comfort. when I'm with him, the only thing that cross my mind's just him. yes, him. his smile is beautiful, makes me want to see his smile everyday. his funny acts, make me laugh until my tear's running down. his warm hug makes me feel like I'm the only happy person right now. his face makes me missing him for seconds, hours, days, months, always. He never get angry with me, even I do something bad to him. even I always feel jealous with his old first love. He helps me in many way.. he escaped me from much problems, and he sacrifice many things for me. all what can I say's just..

you're my strength. today, and ever.

 these are the pictures when he became Instruktor of MOS & PDS Smansa

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really touch

I get these words from Rania's blog. I found those post when I read her old-blog-post :D

awesome, Ran!

She may not be your dream come true,
She may not be the shooting star you've always wished,
But she will always try to be that one girl you've always needed.

1) She won't mind sleeping a little bit later just to talk to you, the guy she's been in love with
2) You've always been in her prayer
3) She would call or text you, in her busiest time, just to know if you're doing alright
4) She would never get mad at you, because she never wants to hurt your feeling
5) She may get jealous some times, but never get it the wrong way, it means she loves you too much
6) She hates waiting, but when it comes to waiting for someone she loves, she won't care
7) She can be your best friend and your lover at a time
8) She always wants you to be happy, even if she is no longer the part of it
9) She always wants you to find a reason to smile, even if she is no longer the reason
10) She may fake her smiles, but never her tears and feelings

11) She remembers every little thing about you
12) When you're near, her heart beats faster and slower at the same time
13) When you talk to her, she can't seem to stop smiling
14) When you hold her hands, her heart melts like never before
15) When you brush her hair, her cheeks blush
16) When you kiss her, her knees go weak
17) When you laugh, it warms her heart
18) When you cry, it bleeds her heart
19) When you're away, she'll never stop loving and missing you
20) When you leave her, you take parts of her, and her heart with you
21) She loves you for who you are, not for how you look
22) She loves you in and out
23) However sweaty you may get, she won't mind to give you a warm hug
24) However annoying you may get, she can never get mad
25) She never forgets every little thing she's done with you
26) She never forgets the times that bring smiles to her face
27) She never forgets the one that flies her high, and it's you
28) She never forgets her anniversary date
29) She loves the way you call her name
30) She loves you.