Random part II

hello, guys. thanks for keep following my blog even I don't share anything goods. hehe

I'm exactly in my final exam (end of first semester) but I don't have any minded to go study, or just open a book, yeah I'm a bad student. But you know, I would really like it if I can studying like any clever students out there. I REALLY wish. Cause I really regret this whole six months, how I can be like this, too lazy and don't have any motivations. Oh God, my life is not like this on my first grade.........

this make me miss my first grade times, where I were that overactive in the old time. I miss my seatmate in X9 Rima, I miss going to beach with her and Rania, I miss going out for all time with friends or just going to school in holiday. I miss Sintha Tolek and Dea, how we spent time that much, in old time. I really need a motivations, but, who? what? where? I don't know a single thing to find out why I'm becoming like this today, yesterday, or second grade? no need to take care of clothes, my ponytails, eyeglasses, task, but still better than who I am today. like Katy Perry said "all these money can't buy me a time machine.." I really want it to have a time machine, to fix my bad past and become a good and happy person like me in old time. just show me thhe way, God, and I'll try....

random

when he's starting to hide everything even it's just a text. when he delete every messages so you can't read it. when he's starting to text you simply, when you feel nothing cause he just show you the other side of him. that guy who make you believe him that he loves you, but actually no. when he said nothing but there, it is. when he make you cry but he don't feel sad. when he just shower you with gifts, without love. that guy, you're falling in love with. fool you.

it's too... routine

Routinity is one thing that I don't like too much. I hate when I feel I'm doing the same things everyday, wake up, school, home, gossip girl's marathon movie, trying to study, then sleep, and awake for doing the same thing, again. well, before I'm writing on you right now, I think there's much mind blowing like "I'm gonna tell this on you!" but it always fail. why I can't write things on my mind freely on you? maybe I'm a bad blogger, sorry for that but I wanna share a story with you badly. just don't know how.

I'm in my new shots lately, with my skinny body things, trying to focusing on study things, etc etc. I just wrote it on my post-it so I won't forget. bless me, people! Err.... you did know that I'm craving for buying a much of new clothes from my lastest post, and.. I can't. I don't now why it is so hard to saving money, and when you have much, you don't wanna buy anything from those money. maybe this's what my parents try to told me, that cost much money from your own is kinda, hurt. right? thanks for giving me a lessons, mum, dad. <3 p="p">

geeeeez, maybe I should stop writing. this bloigging things is making me thinking too hard about what I'm gonna write, and I hate that when I'm trying but the end is your post is about random things, so... I'm trying to say good evening, have a nice day people :)